Life's collapses

Haiz...not getting better or worse...just at the same place...at the same time...just dying...emotionally..mentally...
Just wanted attention...but got none.
Wanted peace...got none.
Wanted positivity...got none.
Wanted to die...got all.
Haiz...my life's a mess..I don't even know how to deal with it...I can't keep it in any longer...I'll go mentally insane...but don't know how to express...
I tried to be positive but I'm being killed inside...